I Remain

You ask me about the future we'll make
the paths we'll take,
the battles we will fight
You ask if I'll stay with you
And hold you through the night.

I'm often left mute
bereft of the ability to say.
The future is uncertain
I'm down a road that I've not tread,
I'm scared to say too much
Tell you untruths while lying your in bed.

The future once looked bright, 
But the world krept in
I believed a lie.
I feel my hope dwindle and fade.
But seeing the light in your eyes 
I know it's not gone fully away.

When I feel your warmth against me, 
Limbs tangled up in mine
Hands clasped and hair cascading
I think "this is the time"

The Time to tell you I love you,
and of the future I see 
You and me together
Living happily

"I never wanted marriage"
I've grown accustomed to say,
It was never in my reach,
so I put that thought away. 
But you've come along
and now it isn't true
when I look in the future 
I can hear me say "I do"

I never wanted children,
Pass my trauma down the line
But with your hand in my hand
I know they'll be more than fine.
I see us both as parents
Intelligent curious kids
Teaching and loving
Undoing what my parent's did.

I want to part my lips
To tell you the full truth. 
But a sweet taste
Turned to poison
What would be the use?

What damage could I do to you
to speak my truth aloud?,
To build you up and let you down
would that lessen the pain?
What hurt will I put you through
If  Silent I Remain